This hand in my throat is aged it writes my head a script & wrings my body of oil you only know the spasms the warmth & chill the melody & moans the fast & binge the nights you sleep & I sift horrors from the darkness you like to interpret everything as hunger, & with this one as aged as time i am behind you on the restaurant’s rolling stair as a clapper oscillating in extremes the vain chime trapped in the walls of the bell like an internal bleeding i have been here the woman munching sausage at the edge has straws in her hands the semicolon marked on her skin is an unread billboard, a breached warning, so I don’t fuss about symbols the girl teasing her father does not know the self-carpaccio botched on his wrists the waiter inspirits the knife with the desire of his gut In the showcase an indigestible memory rattles the amitriptyline i swallowed at your back see the hot-dogs my wires that conducted love & lost their insulation to the voltage see the steak my chunks from the grill of guilt the bread in the oven is the gasoline’s aroma before it failed to quench sorry i have been the favorite menu you don’t know its dishes i am bile i am a shad i am an abyss i am a free radical & my mind is a harlot i am God’s lost sheep in a family lost things remain lost you see, before you found the vehicle, i veneered it to careen down this slope without you when you said therapy i climbed a ladder of wet rails and slippery rung & thudded down the feet at each step up now i am an open ear & you speak my salvation in your idiolect should i clutch onto you like the heavens onto the sun in a sun shower? i want the miracle of a vehicle that stops depressing the clutch i want to be the stem’s uprightness in the teeth of its canker see, my arm is slender & my muscles are strained the shot to be thrown is 16lbs help me spin in this tight circle help me wham the weight into the wall without crashing with it
Daluchi